fuck you, mountain. fuck you.

It's 11th May in 2013. ten days until our half year anniversary. dan hari ini kamu ga ada kabar sama sekali selepas pergi ke  Ranu Kumbolo. I couldnt sleep at night. I was waiting your reply each hours. Khawatir sumpah.  but I got nothing.

Rasanya mau marah-marah dan ngambek karena kamu bikin khawatir. I hope you'll be fine. your last word tonight, " I love you so much ".

Do you?

Ga tau gimana rasanya pas nanti denger kamu nelfon aku duluan. Entah rasanya marah, kangen, meledak-ledak ga karuan.

Sadar ga kalo kita beda dalam menyikapi masalah. terutama urusan hati kalo lagi kangen atau khawatir. kamu tenang. dan aku cenderung mau marah meledak-ledak. that's how i express my feeling, that's how the love that i show..

aku mau marah karena kamu ngebuat tidurku ga tenang. karna kamu bikin aku worried terus terusan tiap detik, nyiksa. ngerti? Ngga puas ya kalo kamu pergi dan ga bikin aku nangis?

Can you feel that, yang? can you feel the feeling that covering those symptoms? Being uring-uringan, marah-marah ga jelas.

It's Love yang. and this is the way I tell you that
I love you, i care on you,

sering kan aku bilang, "aku kecanduan kamu."
then, its the reaction of me (your-girl-that-suffering-arisaddiction) bcz you didnt contact me for 14 hours for climbing that fucking mountain yang! I said: fucking mountain.

regards,
your ..... (i dont know how to call my self after this experience that i had on you)..

fucking idiot girl.

thank you.